Important are the elements contained in it that have simply changed. Starting from physical health matters, to interpersonal relationships and my interests, hobbies. I wrote there that I prefer to sit with flowers than go to the city. (...) When I turned fifty, I bought myself a house in the countryside. (...) And I already thought this is a stage. And I still think, probably... That's why there was 'maybe' there too. Unless this is still a stage, maybe not the twilight one, but the last one. (...) I now have this ten-year relationship that's not working out as I'd like. It's more like a friendly arrangement than something romantic, sexual, right? That part isn't there. And that's why I wrote about loving and being loved in physical form too, which I'm missing. That a certain stage has ended. Only I perceive it in two ways - that this stage ended and will never return, I won't go to a disco anymore. I won't go to friends' parties. I won't meet new guys and so on. I don't really want to travel anymore (...). So these are negative emotions, but the positive ones are that I've already experienced all of this. And it was great.