I took [the alarm clock] as a symbol of the [Soviet Russian] era I come from. We all know […] how homosexual people were treated then. […] As a consequence, I have had to suppress my desires. And subsequently, my attitudes have also been relatively not the best. And my father was also very conservative, and he wouldn't have accepted it at all. And that's why I've been stuck with these thoughts that, well, I've got to live with a woman and have a family. And well, would I dare to go out on the street with my true love, holding hands? […]  I dont’ know! That’s a problem I would like to leave behind.