In 1991, Estonia restored independence after the coup. I was in France at the Taizé monastery. I had already been in Sweden to study, but it was still the first time for me to get to the free world. And it was a spiritual awakening. I had been Christian since I was 19, but this was perhaps more about hating the Soviet regime than being a solemn Christian, a young person’s resistance and interest in church camaraderie of the period. So I’d like to bring this spiritual state with me to overcome this obsession of being liked.